"For the first time since this journal began, I'm at a loss for words. I'm
writing this to put an epilogue on the life of Connor MacLeod. I wouldn't call
us friends by any stretch, especially since he never knew who I truly was. But
there was a strength about the man that attracted me to him. I suppose it was
that same strength that led me to his younger clansman.
"Connor MacLeod understood the Game better than most Immortals, I think. He
never shied away from a fight because of the issues involved. He realized, as
we all should, that regardless of emotion, or situation, or friendships, we will
all eventually die. Except One.
"Connor had reached a point in his life, as many of us do, where he realized
that the Prize meant nothing to him. When one loses interest in the world, or
loses so many loved ones that living is simply pain, there is only one choice:
when. Well, there's also the question of whom. And Connor made his choices.
"Actually, in centuries of observing my kind, I've noticed that we all
periodically come to a critical juncture. The horror of the fighting and the
killing and the death pile up on us. And in that moment, we decide. Stop
loving? Stop caring? Stop living? This journal will attest that even I have
not been immune. How many have to die before one loses one's self in the
carnage? How many times has it happened to me?
"I can't even remember the tragedy that drove me into Kronos' grip.
Damnit...yes I can. Is it a feature of Immortality that we must hold onto
memories we wish we could forget? I believe it is. And Connor MacLeod
remembered. At some point, the memories of his loved ones, of the happy times
in his life, were overrun by the memories of grief, and love lost.
"Duncan has been a bit of a problem lately. His blue funk isn't nearly so deep
as that which happened after the Richie incident, but I think he's now beginning
to realize how painful his existence will be, should he become the One. I only
hope he can push through the pain where Connor couldn't. At least for now, he
still has people he loves and who love him.
"There will be more milestones for MacLeod. Dawson isn't going to live forever,
and that'll be hard for Duncan to take. Who am I kidding? It'll be hard on me,
too. Then there's Mary Lindsay. And Anne, for that matter. But those trials
will show his true character, and test him to see if he is worthy of being the
One. And I believe he is. I believe that his actions when that day comes will
be a tribute to all those he has outlived, who helped him become who he is.
"And I'm sure that, in that day, Connor will be smiling down on him. And so
will I. And perhaps the ultimate epitaph for us all is the One who survives."
This entry is not dated, but obviously refers to the events
involving Jacob Kell and Connor MacLeod. Methos seems to have correctly
predicted that Duncan MacLeod would be the One. I guess he wouldn't have
guessed that his own life would end so soon. Or that it would be a further 400
years before the Game would finally end.
